Okay... I really hope someone reads this and might be able to help me out here.....
So.... about 4 years ago my life completely fell apart and I cried out to God for help (literally sobbing at my ta... View MoreOkay... I really hope someone reads this and might be able to help me out here.....
So.... about 4 years ago my life completely fell apart and I cried out to God for help (literally sobbing at my table), and everything just stopped. The anger, the sadness, all of it just ceased. It was almost immediate that I just cut out all wordly music and movies, started looking up sermon online like Grace to You and others, and my word it was like everything was just.... okay, you know?
I had started going to my family's church and shortly after I was baptized. Everything just fell into place, and then..... these voices started in on me. Back then I thought it was The Holy Spirit at first, and maybe it was but.... then something else began to take over.
In the shower I found myself bashing my head off the bathroom wall from this voice. I was crying hysterically and it was just like something took me over. Since then it's gotten really bad. I've been bashing my head in with hardcover bibles and punching myself in the head trying to remove this thing. This has been going on for the better part of 4 years now.
Prayer and fasting does nothing. My family thinks I've lost my mind. I've lost my closest friends and family members in another state for speaking of Jesus. My peace is shattered and.... it's demonic, that much I know. I was told I was bi polar but even with the drugs which I stopped using..... these voices became LOUDER and said drugs will do nothing to help me.
This is like totally happening to me. I've tried suicide twice which failed. I cried, begged, pleaded, absolute begging God for mercy and nothing. They come and go. I get no answers from God. I've asked repeatedly what I have done wrong and nothing from The Lord. I don't know what to do here. It's like there are nights now where I ask God to kill me in my prayers.
I'm losing EVERYTHING including my mind and God remains silent. I've actually considered going to a pagan catholic Church to ask for an exorcism because I don't know what else to do. This has been going on for longer than my extent 4 years ago. These things claim that they've been with me since I was 7, which is weird because that's when really awful things started occurring in my life.
Sexual dreams were given to me before I even knew what sex was. Terrible dreams about sex, loss, death, etc. I have no recollection of being messed with as a kid so that's out of the question. I've gone high and low scouring for any and all information on this phenomena and no one has any answers for me.
I need help in a big way and God isn't talking, but demons sure are. They keep saying that God gave me to them when I was 7. I..... should I believe them? God won't speak to me and I don't understand this. WHERE IS HE and why is he doing this to me? What did I do at 7 years old that these things are happening to me. For 35 years now I've been under these attacks and no one can do anything. It's like.... God really did hand me over to them.
I've been given prophetic dreams about future events in my own life that have happened since 4 years ago, but they're all just spelling my doom with no outlet or hope to get out of this. I was also given dreams from demons like I'm in my room on my bed still but.... the darkness is different, and it's like I'm in another dimension or something. They're holding me down and I can't move and I'm barely able to utter the words Jesus please help me!!! Like these dreams were just given to me to let me know I'm doomed before it happened. WHAT DO I DO???? Do I kill myself? Is this the end? Did God just hand me over to these.... things? I have found nothing in scripture that says he does this directly but there were people in The Bible who were demonically possessed, however I'm aware of what's going on. They talk.... and that's enough each time to feel like I'm dying from the inside out hoping there is no tomorrow.
My brother died at 26 years old from a drug overdose after years of drug addiction. He was molested, and he heard voices, too. He had no mental problems. At his funeral these voices were allowed to attack me there as well. I just..... don't know anymore if God is really who God says he is. How is this good? How is this right? What good comes from this?
America is quite the lunatic asylum these days. There's no need to wonder why other so called "great" pagan societies fell anymore and why even some no longer EXIST. This kind of spiritual psychosis c... View MoreAmerica is quite the lunatic asylum these days. There's no need to wonder why other so called "great" pagan societies fell anymore and why even some no longer EXIST. This kind of spiritual psychosis can't maintain itself, and if it can't maintain itself or function properly and an entire society begins to follow in suit then what you have is an entire civilization ready to collapse in on itself.
Spiritual and Physical reality are one. If our 'reality' is the One True Living God, then Physical and Spiritual reality harmonize, however if Physical and Spiritual reality are based on fiction; the shoulda woulda coulda maybe possibly perhaps might have philosophical approach like Atheistic Science or Pagan idolatry collapses in on itself due to insanity which in turn creates cataclysmic chaos.
I use the term insanity due to the practice of anything being done over and over again and expecting a different result, and all throughout the history of man there are a few things that have never worked like socialism, communism, dictatorships, LGBTQ integration, Racial, Social, and pagan moral superiority, and mankind even calling themselves gods; all these thing have one thing in common.... The Devil. Being that The Devil is the complete embodiment of all insanity and societies all throughout history have been embracing his error it doesn't take a man of great intelligence to foresee the disasters to come from circular insanity chasing it's own tail.
All we have to do is check out human history in itself, but now even the education system is following this pattern of psychotic reasoning when it comes to circular insanity being that everything is relative according to a societal or "civilized" point of view. The great psychosis is inventing new realities for ones self that aren't reality at all.... this is called insanity.
Who doesn't want to take the vaccination? I have good news. Ready???
... View MoreWho doesn't want to take the vaccination? I have good news. Ready???
I'll tell you up front I don't like modern translations of The Bible like the NLT, NIV, ESV, and so forth. I'll give you an example why, and you can draw your own conclusions, which shouldn't take too long.
Galations 5:19-20
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The acts of the flesh are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; 20 idolatry and WITCHCRAFT; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions...
Okay, so as you can see I put in all CAPS "witchcraft". This is not the proper word from the original Greek translation. The proper word is 'pharmakeia', which is a word used in our modern day society which is.... pharmaceutical, or pharmacies.
Now you'll hear some Pagan claiming to be a Christian stating that Pharmakeia relates to drugs, like illicit drugs. The Thing is... it relates to MAN MADE POTIONS, TONICS, and ANYTHING that has to do with MAN MADE ITEMS in the realm of drugs; although this was also known as.... you guessed it, witchcraft. And.... what is a vaccination???? According to our own government here in The U.S. of A.... IT'S A DRUG. A man made drug. Use this for your religious exemption, because.... we're not supposed to be using ANY man made drugs in the first place according to Paul The Apostle, and others. Do your research, people.
This is going to be a very tough subject to speak about, but let all who have eyes see, and let all who have ears listen.....
... View MoreThis is going to be a very tough subject to speak about, but let all who have eyes see, and let all who have ears listen.....
I can look back as far as I can remember at about 10 or 11 years old and there were.... many problems all throughout my childhood and adult life. I couldn't keep myself together at any point in time.
Doctors by the time I was 27 years of age concluded that I was bipolar. I was on all kinds of medications that made me even worse. NOTHING helped. I couldn't hold onto friendships or relationships as a whole as a child or even as a man.
I had started using drugs when I was 20. LSD and Psilocybin Mushrooms were common place. Later on it led on to alcohol. You know what's strange though is that "dependency" was never there. Addiction was never an issue. I thank God for that.
When I came to the Lord almost 4 years ago strange things began to emerge. "Voices" were heard by me, and I swore up and down it was God himself, but it wasn't; it was a tormenting spirit. Understand this.... it goes deeper to the pit, and higher to the Heavens then most will realize.
In the past four years after coming to Christ I lost the few remaining friends I had, and my family members all but disavowed me. It's been an absolute frickin' nightmare. I tried to commit suicide twice, I would lose myself in anger and I was absolutely miserable. I wanted to die. I prayed that God would kill me. In the last two weeks I asked God if I was to turn on him the way he turned on me (that's how I perceived it at least) would he make the tormenting spirit stop then? In other words... if I sought the Devil instead of him, would he stop attacking me? That's how bad it got in the end.....
Then.... On a whim (I can honestly say it was God who Led me there) I started looking up generational curses applied by God himself, and.... there's one in particular we need to discuss. The ***** curse, and it's real, and it's prevalent more than we'll ever know.
Sexual sin is a very grievous crime against The Lord God Almighty.
Deuteronomy 23:2 - “A ***** shall not enter into the congregation of the Lord; even to his tenth generation shall he not enter into the congregation of the Lord.”
1 Samuel 11 2 - 5 - David conceived a ***** child. This adultery resulted in a murder to cover up the sexual sin, then the child died. David’s household was cursed with the sword, his wives were taken by others, rape occurred in the family. Is there a sword in your family? Adultery, murder, abortion, incest, wandering, insecurity, sexual sins…all these may arise from and out of the ***** curse.
My mother was 17 and came from a broken home that literally could be a Hollywood movie. She ran into a 27 year old pig who saw a young girl from a broken home and an easy opportunity to "get laid". He said all the right things and she fell for it. She became pregnant with me. Long story short the guy took off (go figure), my aunt who was a little younger than my mother was going to help her take care of me. My Aunt died shortly after I was born by a drunk driver who ran her over in a semi truck while she was riding her bicycle.
42 years, people. 42 years of misery, loneliness, chaos, drugs, and a false interpretation of mental illness has plagued me. God holds true to his word when it comes to sexual sin. Many many people have suffered as I have for decades due to the sexual sins of their parents, and yes.... God curses children. UNDERSTAND THAT.
He wiped out Sodom and Gomorrah for their sexual sin, and you'd better believe children were there. He wiped out Nineveh after Jonah's times for their idolatry and sexual sins as well. God allowed serpents to invade the camp of The Israelites to poison and kill men, women, and children. God allowed Babylon to over run Jerusalem due to their sexual sin and idolatry, but before that happened great famine plagued the land, and parents were EATING their own children. God told King Saul to kill off The Canaanites which included children as well.
People.... God is love, mercy, and compassion. But God is also HOLY. His word stands from the beginning to the end. HE WILL NOT ALLOW SEXUAL SIN TO GO UNPUNISHED, and yes your children will suffer as well. God shows no favoritism, people. He does not differentiate adult from child when sin is prevalent.
I prayed to Our Lord God. I asked him to forgive my mother and father for their sexual sin. I asked him to lift his curse of The ***** from me. I haven't heard the demonic voice for 3 days now. I've been at peace. I've been able to be rational for THE FIRST TIME EVER. I've been able to act on peace rather than anger and chaos. THIS HAS NEVER OCCURED FOR ME.... EVER UP UNTIL THIS POINT.
People..... WAIT. Wait for sexual pleasure in marriage. You're children (not just you) will suffer immensely if you don't. God isn't playing with us, and he's not playing with America, either. We've looked at sexual sin as a joke.... something to just shrug off. 42 years, people. 42 years of misery, suffering, and chaos due to my parents sin. I strongly suggest you reevaluate your relationship with Our Lord God. DO YOU KNOW WHO HE REALLY IS? DO YOU UNDERSTAND WHO HE REALLY IS?
He is God. He is the creator of all we see and don't see. He cursed the entire world due to the sin of Eve, then Adam. If he cursed the ENTIRE WORLD for a single act of disobedience of Adam and Eve, do you really think you can justify yourselves in "the heat of the moment"? Reexamine yourselves, and more importantly reexamine Our Holy God. He will not tolerate sin, no matter how "small" you may think it is. There's no such thing as "small" when it comes to sin.
But remember... thee is hope in Jesus Christ, and although there are consequences for sinning, you will be forgiven through your repentance. Also remember to confess your sins to God Almighty. I did that, but there was a sin that I had forgotten about, or just didn't realize exactly, if that makes sense. The sexual sin of fornication from my parents, and the curse of God. The "B-A-S-T-A-R-D" curse. I'm confused as to why ***** isn't permitted to be written here. It's written in the Bible.....
I'd like for my brothers and sisters to look at something this afternoon. Have you ever wondered just how crazy sin is when it takes over our hearts? I'd like to take a moment to reflect on The Israel... View MoreI'd like for my brothers and sisters to look at something this afternoon. Have you ever wondered just how crazy sin is when it takes over our hearts? I'd like to take a moment to reflect on The Israelites and their new found "god" The Golden Calf while Moses was on Mount Sinai? Here they saw the Red Sea was parted with their very eyes. They were given great treasures of gold and spoil before they left Egypt, and not only did they choose to turn so quickly on The Lord God, but in order to complete their sin towards him they took the gold spoil that God gave them from The Egyptians to fashion their "god".
They made themselves poor in spirit, and poor in the materialistic sense as well all to appease their sin. Have we ever done this? Have we ever taken our gifts that YHWH gave us and turned them into an idol; The Golden Calf? Do you remember the ruin that followed? Do you remember the poverty in spirit and the gifts that God gave you?
This idol can be anything from our own bodies, adultery, money; where we take God's blessings and turn them into an idol, instead of thanking The Almighty and remaining in him for the gifts he's given us. Take this to heart.... make an idol of the gifts God has given you, and your idol will disappear, and for a while.... God will seem to have, too.
I did that. I payed for it severely. Only now after almost 2 1/2 years is The Spirit speaking to me again. My disobedience caused such detrimental severity in severance from God I was given time to see what life is like without him. THAT'S HELL. That's what Hell is. I never want to feel that ever again. If you even feel the inclination to sin against God even WITH HIS WARNINGS AGAINST IT.... you will know what Hell is. Sin lasts for a short season, but The Lord's discipline is..... HELL. Whatever it is, leave it behind you. It isn't worth what you'll lose, and it isn't worth silence from God himself. Heed this warning.... DON'T DO IT. WHATEVER IT IS, DON'T DO IT.
I couldn't contain myself last night when The Lord God spoke to me again. Beyond grateful isn't even a sliver; it doesn't cut it. Our lessons in life are hard and cold, and still God forgives us, and when the discipline ceases begin anew. Love The Lord Our God with all our strength, with all our soul, and all our might. Wrap yourself around him the way a five year old wraps themselves around their father with their legs around his mid section, and their arms around his neck. To cry and say.... Don't let go. He will hold you to the end.
America is the symbol of Freedom to people outside of Iesus The Christ. America is one of the LAST shields of freedom, hope, and democracy for all in The World.
I'm going to make a prediction now. ... View MoreAmerica is the symbol of Freedom to people outside of Iesus The Christ. America is one of the LAST shields of freedom, hope, and democracy for all in The World.
I'm going to make a prediction now. That prediction is this......
Should The United States of America; The Shield of Hope to The Godless and The Symbol of Freedom to those without Iesus The Christ turn into a socialist/communist/dictatorship, then that hope will be gone.
I predict should America turn into one of these tyrannical regimes, then World War III WILL HAPPEN. The oppressed will fight back, the world will wage war against itself, the people will tear each other apart like the wild animals they've been taught they are through evolution, and only ashes and misery will be the absolution of the world. From those ashes the Anti-Christ will arise, and new horrors await those left after this great catastrophe.
The people of Christ shouldn't fear this, though. By then we'll be gone. If The Democrat American Leaders have their way alongside of their followers, then the rest of the world will have to contend with their self destruction. The world HAD it's symbol of hope without God. Take that away, and ANNIHALATION will have it's due. The Devil's time will have come for a short season.
Take heart, brothers and sisters. Comfort one another.... comfort one another. We won't be here for that. I only hope the people of America who have chosen The Devil repent. This MIGHT really be it.
"Walk up to someone and tell them that God loves them and that God has a wonderful plan for your life. Can you imagine telling that to an American?
"Sir, God loves you and he has a wonderful pla... View More"Walk up to someone and tell them that God loves them and that God has a wonderful plan for your life. Can you imagine telling that to an American?
"Sir, God loves you and he has a wonderful plan for your life."
'What?! God loves me?! THAT'S GREAT because I love me, too! Oh this is wonderful! And God's got a wonderful plan; I've got a wonderful plan for my life, too! And if I accept him into my life I'll have my best life NOW?! THIS IS ABSOLUTELY WONDERFUL!'
That is not Biblical evangelism. Let me give you something in it's place.
God comes to Moses and he says this...... "The Lord, The Lord God compassionate and gracious who is slow to anger, and bound in a loving kindness and truth; Who keeps loving kindness for thousands, and forgives iniquities and transgressions and sins, yet he will by no means leave the guilty UNPUNISHED."
Paul Washer
Probably one of the most Biblically accurate preachers you will find. Once upon a time a time I considered him a self hating jerk, but the more I read the scriptures for myself the more I realized what he was saying was accurate according to scripture. One of the few of God servants in today's world that's as real as it can get. He gets who and what he is as a sinner. After reading The Bible for myself so do I. This is the conviction of The Holy Ghost. We can ONLY have that conviction if The Holy Ghost is within us. Too many people have fallen for the New Age Modern Gospel of Prosperity.
There's no repentance. There's no conviction of our filthy selves. In todays "churches" it's all about God will bless you if..... God will give you if....
It's we submit ourselves to the mercy of God's will. It becomes death to oneself. YOU LONGER APPLY WHEN IT COMES TO YOURSELF. Pick up your cross daily, and follow Jesus. Anything and everything else belongs in God's toilet ready to be flushed.
Don't be afraid of God's belt. Don't try to run from it. Like a child who messes up and their parents are waiting at homes with "the belt". It's the same with God. We're sinners. This means we deserve... View MoreDon't be afraid of God's belt. Don't try to run from it. Like a child who messes up and their parents are waiting at homes with "the belt". It's the same with God. We're sinners. This means we deserve to put on hands on the wall or counter for God's lashes. The Lord doesn't want us to be happy, he wants us to be strong. Happiness removes us from his sight. All too quickly we begin to rely on ourselves and our material blessings when happiness begins to take form. When you come home, remember to welcome God's belt. Soon you'll become numb to the lash, and you'll be stronger every ay with God's belt as your reminder of WHAT you are; WHAT we are. Spare the Rod, Spoil The Child. Don't be angry or sad when God beats you. His love is his belt. The Belt is the reminder that we don't deserve to be with him, but he's letting us anyways because of our step brother Jesus. We're The Lord's step children, and although we don't belong in God's house, he's allowing us to eat at his table. God's belt is our sanctity. God's belt is our way to his house. Soon, we won't even even FEEL the lash of God's wrath towards us. Pain makes us stronger. Don't ever try to be happy. The moment you are God will remove that happiness, and whatever is causing your happiness. Be Strong and Courageous.
"In particular, the attitude toward control of the child is likely to change. Each year the child is coming to belong more to the State and less and less to the parent.... The plea in defense that "th... View More"In particular, the attitude toward control of the child is likely to change. Each year the child is coming to belong more to the State and less and less to the parent.... The plea in defense that "the child is my child" will not be accepted much longer by society."
Ellwood Cubberley
Changing Conceptions of Education 1909
Matthew 16:24 Then said Jesus unto his disciples, If any man will come after me, let him DENY HIMSELF, and TAKE UP HIS CROSS, and FOLLOW ME.
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